Everyone, watchout! I am not prepared to cope with this disease. The moment the Medical Officer informed me, it felt like being hit by a big stone. It also felt like being poked by a sharp knife deep inside my heart. I felt like everything is over for me. I know this disease but when it infected me, I felt like it's nothing familiar. It's like being robbed by a burglar. All those things especially eating agenda became a fearsome activity to me plus my husband's spying eyes trying to protect me from side effects.
Oh! I need someone to hear me out. Taking the medication is a challenge and burden to me. I don't know how to control my diet plus the medication. If I eat less could it effect my glucose level which had been controlled by the tablets? I can't understand how to balance the medication with my food intake.
I had a very bad week last week. I felt so sick which I can't explain how it exactly felt. My eyes felt blotted. My fingers painful and my head felt stupid and confuse, not headache. Today, I feel vey bad, too. My eyeball felt like it's going out and my head feel silly. My body is strengtful but without a steady head I can't think and perform my household tasks. So as at work. I am not sick but without my head working properly, I can't concentrate. I remember that Monday evening at work. The test which I usually finish in only half an hour, actually took me 3 hours because I can't concentrate and need to shut my eyes every few minutes.
I am learning. Maybe I need time to accept the fact because most of my senior family members are diabetic patients as well. What I would really have problem with is the good and delicious food......Ouch......I love food! Enough for today. My eyes are painful.
